June 22, 2008
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Grokking poverty & DESPAIR
Winner: loesb
Score: 2,578,790
Tournament completed
1 loesb 2 2,578,790 1,225 2 EminemsRevenge 2 2,000,930 613 3 jcamm 1 1,046,710 307 4 Igger 
1 713,890 154 5 memecas 1 676,940 77 6 SCARLETDOHARA 1 467,450 39 
So one of my “Darlas” [pictured here with my mother] is about to
lose her house…the other one had long since lost her children
And i’ve been bitching about no hot water and sub-minimum wage
Whilst yesterday wasn’t quite a self-pity fest…i had Text Twist after
all…i got to do a lot of reflectioning as i mindlessly became one with
the game…and BTW, could’ve scored more than that
Pride doesn’t go before the fall—Pride goeth before
destruction, and an haughty spirit before
a fall—and being guilty of both i cannot call myself some latter-
day Job.So like she survived breast cancer to lose her job and now her house, and having recently read some Saul
Bellow i’m still a bit pissed that i am not in a position to help her out…yeah, Jew Girl should have had the
Nobel prize, or the American Book Award for literature by now and me—should’ve long been the cause
célèbre of the literary world—with Spike Lee sucking my dick for an option on my next bookBut this is like a correction, as they’d say on Wall Street…done got too complacent on the other klantation i
was working on—Often God has to shut a door in our face so that He can subsequently
open the door through which He wants us to go.
So i was in the laundromat[sp?] this morning and was inspired to do
some painting after not having been inspired for almost 30 yearsAnd maybe i’ll stop procrastinating and get the third book started—
which won’t be a soul’d out production like the second one
With two Visa cards almost maxed out i’m gonna phoenix it…or not…
might not be as talented as i think—if i’m to believe the cuntlings @
http://www.absolutewrite.com/Most of the motherfuckers there are little bitchoys who i would’ve beat
left-handed in high school—the creepy clique of nerds who i saved from
many an asskicking—but now they’re internet gangstas…
Yeah, maybe i should learn to housenigger it though…..
[and for those of you who see my "friends" requests...tired of that fuckin' pop-up
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Comments (6)
My heart saddens to read all of this. There was a time when I would have read it with different eyes and heard the words with different ears. As I look out the window and see the energy of the sun filtering through what’s left of the trees [Joanie had a lumberjack in here over the winter] I know the answer to all of life’s travails lies in asking “What lessons do I have to learn now?” Asking that question opens the next door–I can walk through a “victim” or a “survivor.” It sounds like Darla is a survivor and so are you. As your editor I suggest we spend time finding an agent and drawing successful energy for the second book, which goes no where if it sleeps in a computer.
Namaste` R
M
Yes. I guess we can either stay trapped in despair or hoist ourselves out. Have a beautiful day love, Jon leaves here soon.
Hey, fellow free-thinker. Do you think you could read my latest post and comment? I am just DYING to know what you think about this shit.
oh, she’s right man…
You painted that? It’s beautiful.
Sorry to hear about Darla’s troubles.
Your philosophy is key here. I’m glad it gets you painting again, nice work.